Lab Day

few days back i had my laboratory at hi-precision. I had to wake up early but prior to that i had 12 hours fasting so imagine waiting for your number to be called while your stomach is getting cranky inside. Lol

This lab test are to determine by irregularity on my thyroid and sugar level. SO anyways to cut the story short. After the lab i am just so happy to announce that my thyroid issues or goiter problem is already resolve. ITs negative. Sugar level is normal and so on. But i have to eat more fish though to have my good cholesterol level up. Thats all for now. Just sharing.. GRIN FACE

out of boredom

Lately been addicted to playing games online

viaje del alimento

Had my medical check up today at chong hua medical arts center with my new endocrinologist.

the line wasn't that long so i didn't have a problem when i got there. To summarize everything i was given some lab test for further testing on my condition which is my thyroid problem. So most probably tomorrow at 6am , I'll be at the laboratory to have some test run! fasting it is.

After my check up, my company and i went to Chowking and grab some halo-halo oh la la.

refreshing and super cold treats to beat the summer heat, I need more and want some more.

I ordered halo halo fiesta with two scoops of ice cream. I so want to order more if i had more money to buy.

I also bought this halo halo radio which cost Php 179.00. I so love the design it looks so real and yummy. I haven't tried it on yet because i still have to grab some batteries. It's a multi purpose radio because i think it could also play some mp3. So if u happen to have an mp3 player , you can just plug it in there and it will play. COol right? the size of this radio is actually the same with the real size halo halo takeouts. So what are u waiting for? grab some now

Haiz i want more halo halo, any sponsors? haha. i wish.

btw HALO HALO is also known as FILIPINO MIXED FRUIT DESSERT.

till then` ciao

Come and GO

Language... has created the word "loneliness" to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word "solitude" to express the glory of being alone.

I am in between lonely and in solitude.

why?

The person i love will be away for a while.

not because we both want to

but he have to

for the future and whatever best it may serve.

I am isolated.

i am scared, i am in paranoia.

i have already realized your worth but what more if you will be away.

I will truly miss you.

I hope this paranoia won't last forever

i hope you will stay still holding my hand

my head in your shoulders

my luscious lips on your lips

and a warm embrace

that won't let us apart.

For now you can come and go

but i'll be here waiting for you still.

Love you and take good care of yourself.

i will sheer my thoughts in words for you to know How much it means to be loved by "me"

I always unintentionally push people away

Just this night i was streaming a movie online and focused watching "the back up plan".

Okey a short synopsis for the movie for a heads up

The Back-up Plan is a comedy that explores dating, love, marriage and family in reverse.

After years of dating, Zoe (Jennifer Lopez) has decided waiting for the right one is taking too long. Determined to become a mother, she commits to a plan, makes an appointment and decides to go it alone. That same day, Zoe meets Stan (Alex OLoughlin) a man with real possibilities.

Trying to nurture a budding relationship and hide the early signs of pregnancy becomes a comedy of errors for Zoe and creates confusing signals for Stan. When Zoe nervously reveals the reason for her unpredictable behavior, Stan commits fully and says hes in. Never before has love seen a courtship where a wild night of sex involves three in a bed Stan, Zoe and the ever-present massive pregnancy pillow. Or, where date night consists of being the focal point at a near-strangers water birth which does for kiddie pools what Jaws did for swimming in the ocean. The real pregnancy test comes when both of them realize that they really dont know each other outside of hormonal chaos and birth preparations. With the nine month clock ticking, both begin to experience cold feet. Anyone can fall in love, get married and have a baby but doing it backwards in hyper-drive could be proof positive that they were made for each other.

Zoe's a woman who has a hard time letting anyone into her life. She has a habit of pushing people away when they get close. She also wants to have a baby but because she has no man in her life decides to be artificially inseminated. Shortly after having the procedure she meets a guy named Stan whom she connects with. But she's still afraid to let him in and when she tells him about her pregnancy thinking he would bail but he sticks with her. Written by rcs0411@yahoo.com

SO back to my open diary. Well i have been watching it while streaming thanks to my fast internet connection that i was able to watch it smoothly. I learned a lot from the movie and it struck me, it stuck me big time reflecting myself to that movie. Jennifer Lopez in the movie is the type of person who is afraid to let the people in and pushes her love ones away, has trust issues and so do i. Boy it hit me hard. It was really like me. Om em gee i can't believe it. I am so paranoid right now trying to write this because i felt like that movie was made for me.

Seriously why do i push people away? Is it about the past? The people who curse? Who hurt? Who betrayed? Me.

I realized that i unintentionally been very negative for the past years. I was bitter to myself, crap im crying, but for real i was so bitter on myself, how did i live the past 5 years of my life? I will be 25 this year and i wan't to bail. I want out, out of this misery and out of this negativism. I will try to trust people amidst the risk of getting hurt back. I will let them prove themselves and let them in. yes i will do this because I am in-love with a guy whom i don't want to lose anymore. I am afraid to be alone, I want a family, I want children at most.

IT will be rough and people for sure will hate me but i don't care anymore

I want to be happy , i want my last 5 years back spending it with the guy i am in-love with

for more 5 years and decades to come. I am considering of changing my outlook in life to a better one. I want to be optimistic this time. I want to bare , i want to be nude. I want to be blunt. Oh i guess i will. wish me luck!!

Here some tips i saw online to improve myself to the rest out there seeking answers why and how they became pessimistic about life.

1. Seriously learn to love yourself. Write out the crazy things you love, hate, feel annoyed by and be honest about the things you do that others love, hate and get annoyed by! Once you figure those things out stop doing the annoying shit.

2. When someone says they like, love, respect, enjoy you...accept it! If you act like you don't deserve praise and love over and over people will take you seriously and leave. No one wants to invest time in a self-loather. You deserve love and good people deserve to be in your glorious presence! Let them in and believe the compliments they offer dumb-ass.

3. Stop waiting for people to disappoint you. Accept that some people will hurt you but also… many will not, that is life but if you let fear keep you from trying to see the good in people then you will miss out on some real gems!

4. Stop the "negative-brain dialogue" about how nothing good will happen and how all people are the same. If you tell yourself that only losers will like you then it is the losers that will come your way! They can hear your negative thoughts and will descend upon you like thirsty vampires. STOP IT NOW because being with a soul-sucker is no fun!

5. Act attractive and you will attract positive people....smile damn you!